Hello and sorry for the long time of not posting. Its been a rough week for me mentally, and I had no motivation whatsoever. But I’ve pulled through it and I’m back! Soni want to talk about the way I feel a relationship should work. You see coming from a narssastic relationship to the relationship im in now. There are so many difference that I never realized. This past week I had a rough time with me anxiety. My boyfriend and I had a great weekend away in a hotel in town just a staycation as you would say but when Sunday night came and we had to say our goodbyes I had a literal mental breakdown and could not stop myself from crying. This went on through yesterday. Everytime I even thought about missing my boyfriend it just made me tear up. Missing him all the time is fine im usually able to get through it. But for some reason I wasn’t able to this time. But I finally broke down and asked for him to please come see me. Even though it wasn’t a day we normally see eachother (we usually see eachother on weekends and Thursday nights for our family dinner with friends) he came over and instantly made me feel better we spent 4 hours together watching movies and talking. And when he left I felt so much better like I could do anything. Him being there for me and telling me it was going to be ok just made everything better. Fast forward to this morning where I wake up to him telling me he doesn’t feel well today. Side note my boyfriend deals with alot of medical issues he has diabetes and neuropathy. And lately his diabetes has been giving him bad heartburn and making him feel neasuous. And the meds his doctor gave him aren’t working. So anyway he tells me this and I install jump into mother mode as you could call it. Trying to figure out how to help from work. While there is no quick fix I will be going over after work to bring him so better meds and some comfy pillows to help with his back and leg pain. You may be asking amber where are you going with this. Well heres my point. A relationship is 5o/50. One the days im feeling bad chris does whatever he can to make me feel better and help me out. And on the days he’s feeling bad I do the exact same thing! It should never be one person doing everything and the other wondering why doesn’t he or she care about me as much as I do him or her? Never let anyone take you for granted. Make sure you are just as loved in your relationship as you love your significant other. Well thats all for now ill make sure I keep everyone updated on my life